ocupada!

this morning i got a text message from a hotel asking when i'm available for an interview.. i looked at my calendar and i gotta squeeze them in tomorrow in the morning before i go to sabathani. i'm not really sure what interests employers to hire people. i'll just have to keep doing what i'm doing- eventually someone will wanna give me a shot. i just looked at my calendar and i have an interview scheduled on every day of this week so far, except for friday when i have spanish. i guess this might be further evidence that employers tend to discriminate against disabled workers.. i have work experience and college experience- employers aren't interested in hiring me for some reason. there may be more qualified workers sometimes but after a while- you really start to get suspicious. i'm DONE with mindlessly going to courage kenny- getting ABSOLUTELY NOTHING DONE and just being treated like i'm dispensable. just because i made one mistake in my life does NOT mean i should be fucked for the rest of it. i'm not even entertaining the thought of anything other than my goals anymore. JUST SETTLING has gotten me absolutely NOWHERE and i'm put on this damn Earth for more than making some egotistical-negative-selfish people look GOOD.. so in other words- i was put on this Earth for more than making my family (except joe and jay) look good. they are the number one reason why i wanna get out of this state. that and there's more opportunities other places to help me be successful. the fact that my family refuses to acknowledge the fact that i want more with my life other than to make them look good is pretty damn sad. they need ME to make THEM look like good people. ridiculous. they're too stupid to realize how stupid and sad that really is. go to church. maybe you'll find a purpose in life other than attempting to falsely make it appear like you're "caring" or wtf else bullshit you're aiming for.